I am sorry for your loss...I am feeling the same way...last August I lost my last sibling ,my best friend my beautiful sister Donna....then only 3 months later i lost my Mom....Black Friday became a tradition filled with so much fun and the memories are a treasure I cherish ....the rollercoaster of emotions is so hard...I am the last one in my family I am truly blessed with an amazing husband and children and grandchildren so I am not alone and I know it but..sometimes I still yearn for their voices just want them to pop over.....to plan BF and to vent to eachother about daily life.....I love and miss them so much..I am trying to keep all 6 of my sisters children/grandchildren close but I feel like I am mending a quilt that unravels at the other end as I am repairing it....I look to the sky and know all 6 of my Angels are there keeping me....it helps to be able to "talk " to others who understand....I thank you for starting this thread.....just want you to know this year during the holidays a smile and a cyber hug are coming your way from the midwest..God Bless